This is my wedding anniversary…today. I am sure it will pass by just like all other days, but is just another passing of what was, another milestone.
He picked up our daughter this morning just like he always does, barely talks just like he alwasy does, can’t follow thoruhg with what he said just like he always does. Just another day. Caught him lying about internet acces the other day. I still wish for the big thing to happen, so I do not have to feel bad for my decision. If he would just have admitted to sleeping with someone esle in SanFranciso, or just say I dont want to be married to you anymore, just say I am not really in recovery and never was. Its all just speculative on my part.
But today I will read, clean the house and find something nice to do for me. Maybe make a big dinner. Celebrate the new. Atleast Its a day off right?
So here is to my unhappy anniversary. Five years married, three years dating, eight years total. All coming to an end soon. But to every end there is a beginning.