Excellent psychiatrist experience

Hi all – just a quick update: not a word from my atty or him over the last week. I suspect mine is getting caught up after her family emergency that kept her out of the office for a week – what great timing that was, but I’m sure it’s been miserable for her. I’m going out of town tomorrow so I’ll have to contact her today. No doubt wt will send another shitty email in the next few days, warning me that he’ll send another $2500 to “our” attorney. I don’t know if my atty has contacted his yet or what the deal is.

Also, my primary care had referred me to an MD psychiatrist, whom I saw today, to fine tune my meds, since my mood hasn’t elevated much (the curcumin did a bit) and I’m tired of the nightmares from my current med. For once, it was an excellent experience. She spent over an hour with me, got detailed family history, I told her the lowlights of what he’s done over the last year and a half and how he’s behaving now, discussed the black feeling of depression, the hopelessness, the nightmares etc. It was so reassuring and validating. She told me I had been conditioned for a long time to tolerate abnormal behavior from him, and he’s getting sicker as he’s getting older and it sounds like NPD and bipolar mania…yet another confirmation of those. She told me my depression and anxiety were totally normal reactions to what he’s done and the intolerable situation he’s put me in, both at home and at work, and that him saying he left me because of the plan B and staging it all over my promotion year AND saying we’ll now just be “work friends” was cruelty and abuse !!!! perpetrated on me and his actions are not based in reality (I know we’ve discussed a lot of the same things here, and it was GREAT to hear it all summarized succinctly by a psychiatrist…) When I told her that he called me a baby killer over the plan b and said I was a bad person, her mouth dropped open. She also said, mirabile dictu, that my compulsiveness with the hooker numbers was a normal reaction to him compulsively lying and withholding information, as is my reliving the bad parts over and over in my head. So different from that ineffective counselor J who even told wt in one of those miserable MC sessions that I was “obsessive.”

She’s transitioning me to new meds which will help me to sleep better at night without nightmares, and will also hopefully elevate my mood & slow down the racing thoughts. I’m picking them up today, fingers crossed.