And the prize goes to me

Got a new phone yesterday.
I lost my old one at the Dmv right after my last D-day 2+ weeks ago.
My husband went out of his way to surprise me with a cheap smart phone (which we absolutely can’t afford). Because nothing says sorry I cheated on you again and tanked my job to go to strip clubs and then overdosed on pills to get sympathy, like a smart phone, right?
Oh and a big box of cheap chocolates. When I am 87 pounds down, 48 left to go. It wouldn’t be so bad if it were a few of my favorite kind. But this is nothing worth breaking my diet for. Still they are calling me, but I have resisted. I think I will give them to the kids. My youngest asked Dad why he didn’t buy chocolates for her? He said “because you buy chocolates for someone you’e romantically in love with” I wanted to ask -then why did he buy them for me?
Then he got ready for his SAA meeting, got all dolled up. Cologne etc. Nothing suspicious about that…
I lost it. I was furious. We got into a fight where he was telling me that bringing up his past behavior and actions was tantamount to emotional abuse. Past- as in 2 weeks ago! I wanted to kill him dead. But I took a breather, then came back and apologized (picturing the day he comes home to an empty apartment, with glee). He was suspicious. He said “No, I think you are going to retaliate somehow” I said “think of everything you’ve done to me, if there was a way for me to retaliate don’t you think i would’ve done it by now?” He liked that. He thought that was a good point. I offered to help him get ready and he was so happy he tried to pick me up and swing me around the room. I’ll be honest- after 3 weeks of no physical contact (my choice) that hug felt really good, I wish it hadn’t.
After his meeting he sent me a text telling me how much he loves being sober, especially connecting with his family, he described in detail developing a “real bond” with my son and I. What he totally forgot in that text was that we have two children, we have a little girl who just turned 4. I mean it’s not like he has 18 kids, he only has 2! How do you just forget one? He actually ended the text “my name is John, and I’m a recovering sex addict :)” (his smilie)
And to think I was worried that he would charm me into loving him again!