Thank you for this post. I love the way you put the letting go issue Lisak and all of you…really. I am so in grief. It just came upon me, when I thought I was handling it so well. The behaviors in my husband I thought were based on him feeling bad for himself while lying to me …and now seeing them after his forced confession to me…ugh. Triggering to say the least. But letting go, surrendering. There is a freedom in it. I wish I was truly free to surrender, and mad in a way I have been knitted into his hell…I have kids, I am married, older…but…I have to trust and still surrender anyways. I have a dream there is a man who is kind, tender, healthy and cares. I know. SICK! why even go there. men all seem to be dogs. i don’t want to give up yet that there are not good men out there, but so far…all i have ever been is hurt by men. so i am grieving perhaps the dream that men are kind.
anyways. rambling. thank you lisa for this post. i am hurting for everyone hurting with the hurt i can share. hugs to all. you are not alone and i am not alone. thank you all for sharing and showing me we are in this together.