how to cut those emotional chords!

Dear sisters

It has been a week since I walked out on my H in Starbucks, then blocked my phone, and demanded that he does not contact me anymore, he initially tried to drag me back but I ignored his email so he got angry and stopped contacting me which has been very helpful, as I am still not in a strong place to resist his manipulation, which he had used in the past to drag me back into his pit, I have been doing very well, but yesterday I had to admit was very hard day/evening, as I really felt that need to know what he is doing or where he is going,,,etc.,,,,I had to resist the temptation but woke up this morning with the same feeling, I want to maintain the NO CONTACT boundary that I had set a week ago for myself and for him and I will continue to resist, but when you are trying to empty this deep hole that was filled with him, his emotions, his acts, our memories,,,,etc.,,you start to feel empty, so what do you do to fill up this hole, it has been really hard to cut those emotional chords they are so deep and so strong, I am trying different things, praying to the ultimate power out there to help me through this phase, exercising, seeing friends, my children, my work, my home, this place here with all of you and even fueling my anger every time I feel the need for him by those horrendous memories of his abuse, manipulation, and his sick stories of infidelity , but that area that specific emotional need for a soul mate is still empty and through that space I could see him trying to come back and I don’t want to allow him to sneak back on me , as now with the angry place I am in I can resist, but I know I cannot stay angry all the time and one day I will to have to get out of that anger and by then I am hoping that I am equipped with the means to push him back and push him away, now I am also in no place either to be in any relationship with anyone else, so I don’t even want to go there, it is very dangerous right now for me to enter that zone,,
So what some of you have done, to maintain their boundaries, to keep a NO CONTACT with their H, Exs
Love
Harmony