I finally smiled for a minute!….

I have been so depressed and having such horrid panic attacks that I rarely want to leave the house anymore. On top of that, I have felt AWFUL about myself, loathing what I see in the mirror each day, thinking to myself “SONOFABITCH! I used to be happy and beautiful”!
So one day I went out to buy cigarettes {I know, I shouldn’t smoke, please don’t bash}! and I ran into the gas station with my little one. The lady behind the counter asked me for ID? I started laughing thinking it was a joke; it wasn’t. I didn’t have my ID on me, so I told her “I KNOW I do not look 18 years old, just please sell me the cigarettes” and she said “I’m sorry, I have to scan proof of anybody who looks under 27”. I started laughing and said “Miss, I’m going to be 40 in February! I am way over 27” and she called her manager over who said to me “DOB please” so I told him. He then said to me “Perhaps the next time you do not have ID on you, you should pick an age that is believable”.
I never did get the cigs that dat, but I walked out of there feeling better about myself than I have in a long time. To me, it was a major compliment to have 2 people think I am more than 10 years younger than what I am, when all I see in the mirror is a beaten, weathered, ugly old woman.
Just thought I’d share my silly story.
{PS..I also had a starbucks employee ask me if I were single because he wanted to ask me out. Yet another bit of an ego boost as I was carting my almost 3 year old around after a LONG day}