Letter from my SA

So that business about him straightening up and being the perfect guy for another woman, I feel that too!
I hate that I feel that, but I do.

Found the post:
http://chumplady.com/2013/06/the-fear-that-theyre-going-to-be-better-for-someone-else/

Thanks. Yeah, I get the “investment” point. My husband said last week, that I was pulling out of the relationship now was bad timing. Using Aastock market analogy, he was saying I shouldn’t sell just when the market is at it’s lowest.

Maybe he should have pulled out ( his dick) when the market was high?

Yep, he really said that. Probably pillow-quote-worthy, huh? Sad, but you know, I actually wondered if he was right…like maybe he really has hit bottom and will find his way up. I keep looking for signs, but my sign-reading is so damaged from believing him. He just sent me an email saying it was hard for him to see me “harden my heart” towards him, but ” I understand why you need to do that.” So the first part of that sentence- that it is hard for HIM is to me a sign that it’s about him, and the second part of that sentence is to me a sign that he sees what I’m going through, and that gives me some hope. But you know, I am coming to believe that even if he really does understand my pain and what he has done to our family, that the power of the addiction- of the lure of hot sex and the biggest, best orgasm- is an opponent that is more powerful than this love. Probably true and hard to accept. I still have a pinpoint of hope.

I don’t believe that bit about “straightening up” in time for another woman. They’ll just find someone with more tolerance for the abuse. So I don’t think you have to worry about that one bit. if they were capable of change, it would happen with you, not after you.