Thanks, JoAnn. Isn’t it amazing how our brains keep working in our sleep?
And holiday stress. I have already left the Mall once in tears. I asked my son if he is getting excited for Xmas- nope. I don’t want to push holidays on him, so we are doing it low-key. He wanted our tree and stockings, so that’s it. Baby steps.
And I used to get my STBX a holiday CD every year. It was a tradition he HATED but I LOVED. I don’t think he appreciated much of anything I did for him. So I got to where I just did what made me happy because he would never tell me what he wanted, he just sulked. Whatever. But now Xmas music makes me want to vomit. It’s like a punch in the gut. Someday I hope I can have that part of me back. But it’s not going to be this year.