So sorry I was MIA

Things have been just awful over here, and I haven’t had much time or energy to get back on the site to thank all of you for your support and love. I had bad news from my orthopedic doc who told me my knee surgery was a failure since I didn’t adhere to the recovery {what could I do? I have a 2 year old to chase after and no help}! In between that and other various problems {stalking neighbor, financial ruin, etc etc} my SA was out of the house. Unfortunately for me I had to let him back in due to my knee and to the financial mess he put us in {I also needed help fighting the co-op board about their harassing fines due to the neighbor who stalks my 2 year old..yes, they are fining ME and threatening to throw me out, even though I technically own the place, and I had 5 termite swarms here while he was gone and it was almost impossible for me to keep up with my knee like this and the baby}. I know I’m babbling, I am sorry, I feel as if I’m on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Anyhow, since he’s been back in the house, he has continued on with his insanity, although he is seeing a new therapist {this marks therapist #6 in the past 11 months} and claims the dude is helping him. I know he’s full of shit. However, he now has a new “revelation” in which he thinks he may be “bi” because he is sexually aroused by trannies and he had an “experience” with another boy when he was a pre-teen and he claims he’s always felt shame about it and always wondered why he did it, etc. He’s not claiming to be gay as he says men do not turn him on, but he now says trannies do {pre-op ones that still have a penis}. I told him that even though theses trannies have implants and long hair, what is in between their legs is pretty much the defining character of their gender, and I asked if he’s attracted to the penis. He said yes, so long as they look like a woman from the waist up. Personally, I think he’s just trying to puck out a new excuse as to why he is the perverted sack of blank-eyed, no emotion piece of shit that he is, but was curious as to what you guys think. Did any of your SA’s admit to something like this? Did you find them watching tons of trannie porn or anal porn? 99% of what he watched was trannie or hetero anal, with a few other disgusting things thrown in here and there, and he’s always wanted anal from me, even though it’s the one thing I didn’t want to do. I have nothing against bisexual people and have a lot of gay friends so I was thinking he’s trying to play the sympathy card from me now so that I will help him “come out” or whatever. But honestly I think he’s just a perv who kept pushing boundaries with hookers and porn and once he did it all, trannies was the only thing left standing that he hasn’t conquered yet.
Sorry if this made no sense but I am in physical pain and emotional agony. I just want the insanity to end and I can’t seem to find a way out. Since I don’t have time to go to physical therapy {nor do I have the money} it’s quite obvious that I do not have time to go to mental therapy, so you guys are all I have. I’m apologize for not being more articulate right now {besides the pain I have a 2 year old jumping on my back and a heart that is just aching beyond words}
BTW..he’s still a robotic shell of a man with no personality and no emotion. I think that this trait of his is more maddening than the constant sexual crap. Plus, he has been walking around behind me for days with a hard-on, claiming that he has now realized what he had all along and finds me sexy and hot. I find him revolting and disgusting.