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Hi everyone,
I have been feeling so much better lately. Have been working steadily on getting my old beloved home and yard staged for a sale. Just loving working on the yard. Cleaning up sweeping border beds of flowing plants, vines and shrubs.
Have accepted the financial problems related to “giving this house away” but really have moved to a new place emotionally. That is, that moving on and looking forward is what I want. I am ready to crawl out of this swamp for good. He wrecked that home for me. I could never enjoy it anyway.
I lost so much but really, all that is good about me, I get to take with me and I am getting so much validation in my life. My kids…..my BF……our friends.
Because I am putting together a lucrative business deal based on a business I built over a 20 year period, I am feeling like my hard work and creativity will now payoff. Finally. When the deal is signed I will elaborate. Going slow here and getting legal advice.
For now, I feel the rewards of doing what it took to both heal as a priority and get that SA rat out of my life once and for all. Even after he went crazy, I believe he would have pretended nothing much happened and would have let us continue to live as before. So glad I stood my ground. He made sure to hurt me every way he could. Now……he has no more access to my heart in any way. HE IS HISTORY and lost everything.
Another good thing? He will equally share in the financial loss on the beloved home that will sell for a song. For that, I am pleased.
Enjoying my dignity and good character to share with loved ones until my last day on earth,
DesireeThis really is a ‘darkest before the dawn’ story. When you first joined, you were in such a deep pit. The turn-around is remarkable, and it gives me great hope for myself. Thank you for sharing each step.
Wow Desiree, you are an inspiration! As March said, remarkable turn-around. Good for you! Thanks for sharing – we really need to hear the good stuff too, it helps us all keep going.
Your post made me smile.. THANK YOU. I made me feel hope for my situation, that I/We will be ok in the end. Thanks for sharing… goc
Thanks everyone. Just had another fabulous day. I think my real turning point was when SAXXXXX showed up unannounced and I yelled at him. I saw him as pathetic and as pond scum. My body didn’t react as if he had power over me or could hurt me. Have been feeling powerful ever since.
The other piece is that my financial picture is likely to be much improved for the long haul very soon. Didn’t think I could accept all the change and losses, now I am looking forward to just getting needed change behind me.
Had a long talk with my youngest boy, 23, yesterday. He is in grad school to become a therepist. He was so pleased to hear that I am doing better.
I feel like some of my memory and thinking ability has returned a bit too. It feels like a fog has lifted and that overall feeling of being shattered has lessened quite a bit.
All of you have been such a help. All your sharing has been immensly helpful in helping me understand what the heck happened to my life, and most of all to me.
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