The retreat

Hi All,
What the retreat meant to me and how it made me feel.

I wish everyone was able to make it. We even said at various times we wished all our sisters were there, and that they were there in spirit. I wish everyone was able to have this experiance. Because this is what it was for me.

I was there but a breif period of time, less than 36 hours, and i slept for about 8.

We are all very different people. We come from all over, we have grown up from all over, we have kids, we have families, we have tragedy in our lives, we have differnt hair colors, we are different heights, we are different in religious views, we are different……except for one thing….we are trying to heal from a traumatic even in our lives….sex addiction or betrayal.

I was only around for one evening session. But what i am most taken aback by is the sharing and the truely personal and raw feeling that were shared that are real and true to the core. The pain felt and shared by those who partidipated is real and strong. The love shared between us the same. Because as human beings we truely care and want the best for one another. We truely hope for that as each other. We truely hope to help one another, with all our hearts.

As i got dropped off at the airport i was overcome with emotion. Not sure to cry, throw up…of course some of that was flying anxiety. However after all the flights were over, and i was certain my plane would not crash, I finally got the feel the emotion of the retreat.

It was immense pride that i was able to share in something so powerful. My stride upon leaving the airport with a huge smile and a great feeling of self satisfaction were incredible. and i have felt fantastic ever since. For those of you thought i was grounded and an old soul, well now i am a cemented to the ground. I now see why people volunteer. I now see why oprah does what she does. I now see what it is like to really partake in other peoples lives, and try to help others. As good as it felt to help others on SOS, its was truley amazing to partake in real life. Its is an amazing feeling.

The past weekend changed me even more as i become more into myself and really see my life and how these events will change it forever.

This post is not to make those sad or envious of what they missed. But to understand and in the future partake if they can of a retreat or SOS. To understand what it is like to give and be witness to watching people change and “get it” right before your eyes. To watch people walk away feeling better and stronger for what had happened and how they had changed by just a weekend event. To help those who are suffering and to watch there suffering subside. To watch people connect at all levels and accept others for who they are. To take someone for wherever they may be and help them. And it was an honor to spend the weekend with such caring and be witness to such an event.

I giggled as we walked into the restaurant. We are really truely all so different, not a common thread amoung us…except what is in our minds.

Thats all. I wish everyone peace and love.

Love,
flora