update

well lets hes been out of the house since dec 19. he has been working on the other house for my daughter. he was really off the chain for weeks as i posted from telling me he wanted to rape me time and time again. to me taking the shotgun away one night because i had that gut thing going. a day or two latter he told me he had 4 shells lined up on his radio said he really had no recollection of doing it. i pretty much stopped fighting him i pretty much gave up on him, yet i would still bring him dinner. maybe i was wrong but it who i am i would feed anyone who needed food. well slowly i could see him getting clearer for a better word. there is a calmness about him. i do believe he without a doubt has a pd. everything i have seen over the past few weeks had validated this. his out of sight out of mind thing is so prevalent now. his thought process is odd to say the least.
well he called me this morning and said he needed his service papers so he can go fill out paperwork at the va. he said this before so who knows,thought i do think he went. he said he needs to do something so for now he will do what he needs i guess. i do not know what the future holds for me or him. i did tell him time and time again i can not live with him as he is. i told him i let him back before and i can not again until he proves himself to me. not sure he will ever be able to do that with everything that he has done.